Making Progress But Still Struggling

Honestly, getting better can be scary as hell. It shouldn't be, but it is. I've struggled with that too. I think it may have something to do with a fear of losing the progress you've made. When you're doing well, it's like climbing a mountain. You're getting higher and higher and farther from the dark and scary depths you're climbing out from, but the higher you go, the farther you have to fall and the more you have to lose. It's scary as hell to realize that what you're working towards is so slowly earned and can be so quickly destroyed. That doesn't make the fight any less honorable and important though! It is the battle and the journey that a lot of us share. You are doing and amazing job and it is a beautiful thing that you have made progress that is worth being afraid of losing. Keep going, keep fighting the good fight, you are not alone. And if you do fall, it sounds like you the support system in place to catch you and help you back up ❤

I completely relate to what you’re saying. I felt the exact same at parts of my journey with my mental health. I know it’s not the greatest thing to hear, but genuinely just as time goes on, at least for me, it has gotten easier. You’ve already made so much progress and I can’t tell you how proud I am of you for that, you have to just keep pushing through and making a little bit of progress each day, even if you don’t realize it, because in 2 or 3 years, you’re going to look back and understand that you have changed so so much and that you are going to continue to change, and that as you change you will discover who you are and what helps you with your journey

I'm so proud of you for the progress you're noticing in yourself that you're making! I'm curious what is making you want to leave when you're noticing some really big positive changes in your life? Feel free to dm me if you want to continue talking. I'm all ears