ive been isolated for a while since june of 2022. my sibl...

ive been isolated for a while since june of 2022. my sibling became super sick and the house fell apart. they have basically been living in a hospital and emergency room for a year. with this, the house has become stressed. i have severe anxiety and panic disorders and had an awful experience with a medication that gave me suicidal thoughts and panic attacks. this caused me to become reclusive and hide. i havent seen froends in months, ive had very few phone calls and i dont know how to get back out there. the idea of being dropped off at a friends house is terrifying. in 2021 i was so social, constantly out and about existing with friends. im a completely different person now and lost all progress ive had. i dont know what to do because i want to be happy again but the feeling of anxiety is so uncomfortable and scary that its hard to try and force myself out of my comfort zone