Feeling Unreal: Lack of Autonomy as a Neurodivergent Person

Hey everybody thanks for your response. I know this is about trauma, I just wanted to know how others with trauma from bring neurodivergent would relate to it.

I had that when I first got away from my family... It may be that they were truly trying to help/protect you, but I HIGHLY doubt that if you had to go no contact, and if you ARE now autonomous it shows you're capable of it, so they were probably using your diagnosis as an excuse to be manipulative, controlling, and abusive... The dissociative response tells me it is highly likely you are going through a trauma response, but there's likely much more to it than just being neurodivergent. If you work on grounding and reconnecting with your body/senses, it will likely eventually get better, regardless of the cause.

i get that so much!!

That sounds kinda like dissociation either from depression, PTSD, or depersonalization-derealization disorder. I would recommend you looking more into those.

Yeah I’m like glad I have the control over myself finally, but it also feels like I don’t really have it. I’m so relieved there’s others than feel this way too.

Sometimes I have this right reality check that like I am living and I am alive and it freaks me out. Sometimes it’ll be as simpleized like driving and I’ll just like a look up and be like how did I go from not having any control to being allowed to drive with everybody else. Or something major will happen in my life and I just don’t really understand like how to make it feel like it’s my life that I’m living and I’m not just so I can object in somebody else’s. So I I think I kind of get what you’re saying everything just feels weird