Feeling Stuck and Hopeless

Honestly I don't know what to do anymore. I don't know who Likes me and who hates me. I don't know who I can talk to and who I cant. I'm getting a little hopeless again. I don't Like it. There are very little things in my life that I feel I have control over. And changing those things could either be really good for me or really bad for me. So I stay where I am. Everyone's always angry and sad when im around. Maybe it's my fault. Maybe it's not. It often feels like it is. Im masking who I am all the time now. Even around people I feel I shouldn't have to. I can't talk about it either because I don't want to hurt anyone. Im just so Stuck. I don't know what to do. I don't know. I almost want to stop talking to everyone that I don't know if I can trust now. Like if you can't show that you appreciate me, and it makes me miserable, doesn't that give me the right to just,, stop? But then, on the other hand, that'll be so lonely. I dunno. I feel bad cutting ties. I literally havent been able to do it since middle school. I have no confidence left. No love for who I am as a person. No trust in the people I should be able to trust. Do you care about me. Do you love me. Why don't you show me. Tell me something. If you can't handle me right now just tell me. Stop interacting with me if you hate me just stop. Stop pretending you like spending time with me. I'm terrified. If all these people hate me, leave me alone. Let me be alone, if I deserve it. I don't know.