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Kaori

101d

I have an intense fear of aging. Not the aging where you get old, wrinkly, diseased(more so than I am already.). But, the fact that, me feeling like my chronic illness, made me essentially “skip” the young adulthood years I was looking forward to. I got really sick around 18. I am now 23, turning 24 this year. And, I can’t believe that, the last six years happened, and I didn’t get to experience them. They went by so quickly, with me being in bed, that Im actually very close to having a panic attack writing this that, I can’t just go back and live those years. They’re gone. I was gone, for all of it. I want it back so badly but I just can’t. Please has anyone else experience this or have advice for these feelings? No one around me understands when I ask for advice.

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    • Ash.G

      87d

      I feel the same way. I am so fatigued that I can't do night life. My only sport activity is for Special Olympics rhythmic gymnastics because they actually support my different skills and what my disability slows down my progress on. One thing that my disability impacts is motor skills and chronic nerve issues. I am 22 turning 23 in November.

    • Ash.G

      87d

      I feel the same way. I am so fatigued that I can't do night life. My only sport activity is for Special Olympics rhythmic gymnastics because they actually support my different skills and what my disability slows down my progress on. One thing that my disability impacts is motor skills and chronic nerve issues. I am 22 turning 23 in November.

    • glitterpines

      98d

      no bc i feel this more than you could know. i dont really have advice but like. you’re absolutely not alone and it really really sucks

    • Scarlet9904

      100d

      Grief for the lives we could have had is real I didn't know my prime was 16 and that at 18 I'd be fainting 20+ times a day nor that every time I've thought I've hit my worst point and stabilized it some how progresses and gets worse I'm 33 now completely a hermit there's times I wish I had lived a normal life but there's also points when I hear people talk about experiences they had in their youth that I find myself thankful that I wasn't able to live that time and live those things. I don't know if it helps any and I'm always free to vent to if you ever need to talk but we all grieve the lives we could and should have had but the real key is finding peace and beauty in the life you do have

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