Feeling Lonely and Rejected, Need Advice

I feel so lonely. I only hang out with my mom because my only friend lives an hour away. I know I need friends but nobody ever gives me a chance so what’s the point really. I look at the rest of my family with jealousy. They all have friends. Every “friendship” I’ve had has died. None of those ever go smoothly and has resulted in trauma from even just making friends. I think the universe is just telling me that I don’t deserve friends.