Feeling Like an Alien: An Existential Crisis

I get the same feeling and have for as long as I can remember. I think part of it is that some people have a higher sense of awareness and focus than others on things bigger than themselves. Based on science, we are actually all made from recycled particles that bounce around the universe and become attached to different people or things like planets, etc. So, in that way, we are all a part of time and space. Personally, when I begin to feel like I don't exist at all it manifests are a sort of belief that this whole reality is a dream of some kind and one day I'll wake up and find out that nothing I have ever done was actually real. I think this is my brains way of interpreting the feelings I have of not contributing enough to the world and leaving a bigger impact. I remind myself that I exist by playing out memories in my life, but how they would have been if I didn't exist. Even if it is only in a small way, it helps me remember that if I wasn't really here, things would be different than they are now.

Yes, I've been getting this since I was a kid! I think that existence is a weird experience, and everyone has a mind body disconnect through processes that involve thinking versus your physical feelings you get from chemicals. It's conflicting and weird, and we are made up of so many living things. When I get into this mindset, I find myself trying to observe my thoughts, and try to detach feeling from them, and rationalize them to help me from spiraling. I tell them self that I am just going through this weird experience of living, as everyone has before me, and that it's okay to feel weird about it, because it's weird. Then I usually buy some yummy food and play a good video game to relax! I hope this helps.