Feeling Disconnected: Losing My Mind

I'm in a similar place right now, and I'm sorry that you're in it too. It's hard to stay engaged in your life when nothing feels real and it can be incredibly distressing. You can talk to us if you need to.

i dissociate but i use pain to get out of it i am a self harmer i dont cut no more but ill done other stuff.

Are you feeling dissociation from pain only? Because that a major symptom of trauma as well

You're not alone, I've been living in a state of "is this real?" for so long I've lost track. I just try to keep myself focused on what's in front of me, regardless of whether it's real or not, it's what's important to me. I also listen to podcasts a lot to keep part of my brain focused on something else, so my thoughts don't get too out of control for me to rein them back in. But you are not alone 💛

Dont give up i know when people dissociative they try pain to get back to real world. But have you try a hot shower that way you feel something and maybe it will snap you out of it