Feeling Dead Inside: A Journey of Emotional Turmoil

I completely understand that. I'm dealing with the same feelings, and have dealt with depression or clinical depression since I was about 16. Recently, I almost lost my life and it was bad enough that I ended up on life support. I feel like they just brought back a living dead girl. This post made me think careful what you wish for, because my body did.. but it would have led instead of followed. All I can say is try to look for the little things that used to bring you Joy. Don't look for something big like a hobby or whatever, just look for the smallest thing you can that used to bring you Joy and try to awaken a feeling about that. Basically just take it one day at a time, 1 hour at a time, one minute at a time, heck take it one second or one 1/10 of a second at a time if that's what you need to do. Just focus on the next breath, and that no better how bad you are feeling, we're alive for a reason. I hope that helps. I'm right there with you feeling the exact same way right now. You are not alone.