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Just a Vent, brutal honestly is okay, I know I’m being irrational: I always feel like people will get past the fun “get to know you” stage of a friendship only to find out they don’t actually like me that much. I feel like I have enough charisma to reel someone in, but not to keep them. I clearly have abandonment issues. I have been in a dark funk the past couple weeks and haven’t gone to school for a while. I have tried to tell me friends I’m depressed but we kind of all are, so it’s not exactly a good excuse for them. They used to bother me everyday to go to school, but I think I’ve worn them out. I have an irrational paranoia that they’ve collectively decided behind my back to punish me by ignoring me, I hate feeling like I everyone has it out for me, it’s exhausting, but no one is answering messages on any platform, especially my closest friend, who I’ve only known since fall but have definitely become attached to. They can have low patience and I think they’re pissed at me for never showing up, and instead of checking in on me anymore they just ignore me, even when I’m just sending light hearted messages or memes. I fucked up. I hadn’t had close friends for a long time and I think I got scared and began to self sabotage by hiding at home. I hate the way I am.

    • Epsylon

      769d

      Your friends decided to collectively ignore you? This isn't how to help anyone and frankly, I'm concerned about the the people you keep around you. Would you ignore your friends if they showed similar signs and if they were struggling just as much? Perhaps I didn't word that well, but it's an exhausting relationship and I'm sure it's just adding to everything else. I know sometimes having friends is the way to go but if it's it detrimental to your mental health, I'm not sure how to advocate staying around them? It's true, it is nice to have people close to you. But I'm not exactly sure this is worth it. I understand what you're saying, though. Not everyone understands but I'm not sure it's worth keeping those that don't.

    • dannyimprego

      769d

      i struggle with the same exact thing. it’s been going on for about 3 years and i managed to push all my friends away and i’m now left with a boyfriend and i feel like our relationship is just a ticking time bomb until he gets tired of me and decides to leave. im trying to work on separating my irrational fears vs my rational and only expressing and talking about what is rational. bc i’m upset over little things 24.7 and i found that talking about them just wears people out. i don’t believe it is our fault, as it is just the way we are. but truth is, unless you relate, you will not understand. i don’t think that unless you are/have gone through it, you won’t really feel for the person as much as we want them too. it’s a sad reality and i wish it was easier and people were more understanding, but bottom line is they won’t care as much as we want them too. i just don’t think they can. it kills me to think that way bc i just want people to care for me the way i care for them, but i think people like us use our fears (irrational or rational) to care for people more. and because they don’t have that, their capacity to care isn’t as strong. idk if what i said remotely helped so i apologize if it didn’t. but just know ur not alone. <33

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