Dealing with Epilepsy: My Journey and Questions

I've been on keppra for most my life but im not sure if its effects have changed, I have developed myoclonic seizures over the past 3 years but I've recently been told that they think at some stage I grew out of my epilepsy and now my brain is just faking the seizures because of stress (we don't know for sure yet) I grew up with absent seizures but into my teenage years I definitely got suicidal, not understanding why I could just be like everyone else

I had and I mean literally the same thing happen to me. I know your pain and Im sorry you had to deal with that. But NO you not alone in this.

I know how you feel. My first seizure was March before I turned 12. Scariest moment ever waking up in an ambulance. The Medic was trying to calm me down and told me he used to have seizures too and that he grew out of them and he decided to be a medic cause he wanted to be there to help anyone else going through similar scenarios. I will mever forget that conversation. I'm about to be 18 and that 20 min drive to the ER has helped me get through a lot in the past 7 years. I had a seizure at school one time and students made fun of me and other would joke saying "thanks for getting us put of our classes for an hour and a half" wasn't the best time through middle school and in highschool people would make seizure jokes. They never knew how it felt to have one or the after effects. Their jokes added ontop of my home life was awful especially when I was told I couldn't go down the career path I wanted by my school counselor cause of my seizures. I honestly don't know what to do for a career so I can live on my own or atleast afford my own things. Epilepsy has changed so much whether it be my past present and it even effects my future. So I completely understand the suicidal thoughts and it only made em worse due to the fact I had nobody I trusted to talk to about it. And the people I thought I could trust either didn't understand or just went around laughing about it calling me weak due to the fact I couldn't handle a "simple medical condition" I hope your doing better now and just know your not alone. Also apologies for the long comment I haven't really been able to vent about all my epilepsy related "problems"/thoughts/experiences

I am about to be 21 and i have grand mal and absence seizures. i tried topimax and lamotrigine and neither worked on their own but my keppra mixed with lamotrigine had made my seizures go away as long as i take them as scheduled. i’ve been on the keppra specifically for about a year and a half. i haven’t been resistant to it yet. i started having absence seizures around the age of 8 and they misdiagnosed me with adhd. i started having grand mal seizures when i was 16. i did become very suicidal around this time. i was already very depressed and anxious and having the grand mal seizures made it worse. i’ve endured and overcome those thoughts now.