Should I Try Depression Medication Again?

tw/ light mention of suicide . . . . . . . I used to take zoloft for a few weeks about a year ago when I was prescribed it in the hospital, but this is more of a general depression medication question. I need opinions, should I try taking medication again? I'm scared of side affects, being dependent on it in the future, and whether I'll be able to afford it when I move out. I'm not even sure if I need it. I'm generally uninterested in everything which makes it hard to talk to people and even harder to enjoy activities. I've been in and out of therapy a lot, feeling like I've reached a wall that I can't pad in my progress and I'm starting to think that maybe I can't get past it without medication. I'm very, VERY against going on meds, but I'm scared it's my only option. I kinda hope I'm shouting into the void here, but if I'm not, I hope I can get some advice.