Dealing with Random Urges to Self Harm

TW//SH Anyone else get the random intrusive urge to self harm? Like nothing is really going wrong, nothing triggers it, you're not upset about anything in particular... But there's that sudden nagging itch to just do it. Your brain trying to convince you that there's no real reason *not* to. What would happen? The worst case scenario would just be that you get committed. What's so wrong about that? Free food, free bed, free meds, maybe make some new ~mentally spicy~ friends. It's really hard to fight it when my brain is telling me that nothing could actually go wrong. I know what *could* go wrong. I know what *might* happen. I know that I shouldn't want to because there's not really any excuse for me to do it, but I want to anyway... I want to just because I want to do it just so I can say that I did. I've been clean for 8 years and you'd think that's so great and I must be put together enough to not have this issue, but every single year that I'm clean seems to be getting harder and harder to stay that way... Idk... TLDR; Does anyone else get random & severe urges to self harm for no reason? If you do, how do you deal with it?