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Firstly, I want to apologize for my inactivity on this app. Between battling a deep depressive episode and juggling issues in my personal life, I haven't felt too inspired to use my phone. I've mostly been using Instagram as a distraction. I have an appointment with my psychiatrist tomorrow, which has my stomach in knots. The next day, I'm going to our local Strawberry Festival, which is both exciting and completely nerve-wracking. I'm hoping I don't ruin it for everyone. That's sort of my reputation at this point. I've also been stuck in a spiral of conflicting emotions. I've been coping with the death of my turtle, while also trying to celebrate the arrival of our new puppy. Sometimes - well, most of the time - I feel bad for laughing at and loving on the puppy; it feels like I'm betraying my turtle. I know she's dead, but it still feels wrong. Not to mention, the jerks who mow our lawn somehow managed to unearth her body (how bad do you have to be at mowing grass to dig up a grave?), and holding her hardened body and seeing her eyes had rotted out was incredibly traumatizing. When I cried, my mom said, "I know you're not crying over a little turtle". I guess the way I silently sulked to my room made her realize how deep of a cut that was, since she did eventually come in and try to comfort me. My thoughts have been pretty morbid since Franklynn's passing. It just stirred up all those existential thoughts that make you genuinely wonder if life is meaningless. Some people say you'll be honored, but only for a generation or two. Nobody will remember us in the long-run. I guess avoidance has been my way of dealing with these things...
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That sounds incredibly traumatizing. A few days ago I was traumatized just from watching a random house mouse die. I can't imagine how hard that must have been for you to see your pet like that. Turtles are so sweet. I don't think your turtle would be sad about you having a good time with your puppy. She'd just want you to still have joy in your life. She's probably just smiling at you and I'm sure she knows you love and miss her.
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@YanyLaurel - Thank you, that means a lot. I hope she's in a big field of clovers and yellow flowers (her favorite basking place was in the clovers) with an apple orchard and cucumber garden; those were her favorite snacks. I just hope that even though she's gone, she knows that my love for her isn't. She was so sweet, but very sassy, ha-ha. She was a little spit-fire. I'm sorry you had to see that poor mouse die. I've had pet mice and they are little sweethearts. It sucks having to kill the wild ones. We had an infestation a few years ago because they infested one apartment and then spread to everyone. I hated killing them. I remember going behind my mom's back to use baby oil to get them off the glue traps. If they were still alive, I would do my best to help them and put them back outside. But, once my mom found out, she didn't let me handle the traps. It's just tough because you know they're only looking for food, shelter, and warmth. They're just trying to survive, but sometimes coexisting isn't an option with some animals.
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