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Snowy

769d

Tonight is a rough night at the end of a rough day as part of a rough couple weeks. I was going to try to get off my phone because the screen is making my headche/migraine/whatever-the-heck-is-going-on-in-my-brain worse. But, I'm not ready to go to bed yet so I am just laying there in the darkness and silence. Alone, overwhelmed, and in pain. My endometriosis is flaring up and I think I got glutened so my entire abdomen and low back are on fire. This migraine (or whatever it is) hasn't gone away for so long, I've forgotten what "normal" feels like. My anxiety is spiking and I'd really like to take my meds but I haven't eaten because I've been too depressed and anxious and nauseous, and if I take my pills on an empty stomach, the nausea will get much worse and I'd probably vomit. It feels like no matter what, one of my conditions is rearing it's head and I can't escape. My boyfriend is having a really bad depression episode and refuses to get help. I want to be there and support him, but this has happened so many times and I'm too bad rn to do anything, but he certainly can't help me. I'm scared I need to break up with him if he doesn't get help because he's been getting more toxic for several months and refuses to do things to get better. I love him and don't want to leave him, but I'm afraid it is the only thing I can do to make him get help - if he sees what he'll lose if he doesn't. I feel like garbage because of how far I'm falling behind in school and all my responsibilities. I forgot about a PT appointment today and missed it and it makes me feel like absolute crap. I'm a senior in college and I'm scared I won't graduate. I feel such an immense weight on me and I'm so overwhelmed. Each day has been such a rollercoaster. Low moments and high moments and everything in between. I feel like I can't even keep up. I'm scared and alone and overwhelmed and really need support rn. If anyone understands anything I've written, I'd love to know that I'm not alone. and if anyone has any advice, I'm all ears.

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    • Snowy

      769d

      Thank you for your kind words and advice. I had a bowl of cereal with a vanilla protein shake for the milk for more nutrition. I'm going to be taking my meds now. I will try to focus on feeling okay or at least better and less on success and failure of different things. You are right, that is the most important first step.

    • JessJesse

      769d

      You already know some of this but I’m feeling the exact same way. I haven’t been at school since Monday. I feel that on so many levels. Physical health on top of mental health that’s causing more physical health problems, it’s tough. Props to you for being so strong!

    • maraisaglass

      769d

      Hey I really identify with feeling crappy these past two weeks. I also have not been taking my meds because I've been feeling nauseated and my stomach has been so rocky. Me stopping my meds cold turkey has led to such negative consequences. Just want you to know you're not alone and feel free to dm me if you want to talk more about it!

    • Chronically_Awesome

      769d

      You are definitely not alone. I’ve felt everything you mentioned in your post. A couple of things that really help me during the times I’ve felt like this: -Make a list of three things you can do to help yourself (i.e. breathe, try to sleep, eat a meal, take your meds, read a chapter of a textbook, call a friend, write one paragraph of a paper, etc.) -Make a list of three things in your life over the past week that you have to be grateful for (i.e. that lasagna was really good, I had a nice phone call with my mom, I got an assignment done, my car hasn’t had any problems, nobody I know has died, etc.) Those two things always help me get a little more grounded which helps me with everything else. I can’t tell you what to do about your whole situation, you will have to feel that out over time, but remember to take things at your pace and how you need it. Remember, you can’t pour from an empty cup. You can’t help others if you don’t help yourself first.

    • hoolia

      769d

      that’s great i’m really glad you’re able to do that. i’m wishing you the best! this feeling will improve and when it does, take advantage of it ❤️ small steps are more important than you think, and they are much less daunting than trying to fix the issue as a whole, best of luck friend 🤗

    • Snowy

      769d

      Thank you for your kind words and advice. I had a bowl of cereal with a vanilla protein shake for the milk for more nutrition. I'm going to be taking my meds now. I will try to focus on feeling okay or at least better and less on success and failure of different things. You are right, that is the most important first step.

    • hoolia

      769d

      Hi there, I’m sorry you’re feeling SO much and feeling alone and unsupported as well. It’s hard to take care of others when you are barely hanging on yourself. It sounds like you’ve got a lot going on. I’d try to break it down and see what you can do that may be easiest and go from there. I would definitely suggest taking your anxiety medication since that can increase all the symptoms you listed (migraine, GI upset, nausea, and depression). Eating is SO hard at times like this, but think of it as medication as well, and a way to get your medication to work. it doesn’t have to be a meal. Try some crackers, a fruit, bar, dry cereal just to take the med. it will help. Take it minute by minute. it’s so easy to catastophize when you are feeling so much, but right now, just work on feeling better. Don’t think about graduating, or missing appointments. Focus on feeling physically better, and then with that you can use your noggin better. Eating, taking your anxiety meds, something for your migraine, and a quick rest could really help reset. You got this and you’re not alone! ❤️

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