Can't Remember the Last Time I Was Truly Happy

I don't know if I've ever been "truly happy." I have happy moments, sure.... But I don't know how long true happiness is supposed to last. Certainly it should last longer than a few moments, right?

I can only remember very specific instances, not a time when I was happy in general if that makes sense

the meds are have tons of side effects.. very disturbing ones as well. you may feel like you are living through the motions of life, I've felt that way for years and to this day I still fele like that but things gradually get better, you find little things to be happy about, it's difficult but you have to push yourself to enjoy things sometimes, you have to push yourself to go out even if you don't want to, I know it's scary but you have to. take time and care for yourself, take hot baths, eat nourishing food, get sunlight, see people you love and that love you back. let go of toxicity,of people, of social media that might be draining you. even music might drain you as well. or not sleeping enough. meds didn't ever work for me. they made me numb hypomanic and suicidal and gave me more anxiety. I let go of that and focused on taking the right supplements ( look into nootropics such as lions mane, l theanine, lemon balm) instead with mt coffee every morning - as well as going carnivore. Also don't ever get off your meds cold turkey!! That was one of my biggest mistakes. Good luck on everything ❤️