Edit: like I’ll catch myself being in as happy mood and think “oh it’s only because of my medication that I can feel this way” and I hate feeling like that

i don't exactly feel like this, but i do get really scared about losing my medication sometimes. i don't even know how it would happen, but the thought of needing to go off of it for any reason is terrifying because my normal state of mind is so bad 😞 needing to rely on medication to function is nerve wracking in that way

I understand how you're feeling. I know look at it by thinking, if I had a headache, I'd take a tablet, same for feeling down, it's just a medicine that helps me feel better ❤️