Betrayal and Pain: My Life Story

Ty so much I am sorry for your facial paralysis I have heard u very clearly and will try to love myself after this hell I've been goin through for my whole life

There is some thing that is referred to as excepting the new you, I guess what money I have to face is that the old person that used to be is gone, that person died and you have this new life to live, we can never go back we can only go forward. I don’t really think you can ever be stagnant time still goes on whether you’re just staring into outer space or not grading that makes sense. I had brain surgery, bacterial meningitis, the brainstem stroke, blood transfusions So many more but I’m not trying to brag I’m just trying to explain that I personally have found that I have suddenly all of a sudden found myself being the one with the knowledge of having a brain injury that is moderate to severe the longest and I am generally the youngest in the room lol I was 23 when I had the surgery in 2008. A brain tumor was there almost my whole life slowly not allowing higher cognitive functions to develop normally like others and IQ however, was always above average because my limbic system was kind of silenced? So are used to think I was like an alien not like anyone else because I didn’t feel strong notions like that, like others. I didn’t cry during sad commercials I tried. I do now because I’m old lol 37. OK, I’m sorry this is long that’s how I am now. I’m not sorry this is long but I’m sorry if you are reading this and it makes no sense whatsoever and you hate it LOL. But, Here is what I did and I’m not saying it works for everyone. I was apathetic for long time and then I was just angry not depressed because of the apathy but not nice to people because of the comments I had gotten regarding my right facial paralysis so I just was a butt head to everyone and then I don’t know what happened actually that made me change. I saw people in mental health that I thought were more in a struggle with themselves. than I was. It’s like broken people can sense their own kind and I can almost see them selves or have more empathy or a different kind of empathy? So I decided that I was going to use the wrap but the experiences that I had, which I forgot about most of and thinking about then, yeah I am sad for what I lost or what I can’t do anymore. But I try not to dwell on it because I can do things now and I can do things that no one else can I can give someone a different kind of understanding and someone that has been in a similar situation and actually knows about things that some doctors don’t even really. I hope this makes sense I’m using Google text and facial paralysis with text recognition doesn’t work well

The only one that can save you is yourself. You cant rely or trust anyone else.

Thank u I kno he does I was tested tonight and it proved that he has my back no matter what.

God still has your back.