Constantly Sick and Tired: Living with Chronic Illness

I can't seem to accept it. I feel grief often. Sometimes I don't know if there's a way out of the suffering. I'm hoping to get the underlying cause of my issues figured out, and figure out what's causing the mysterious ones, but even then there might be no effective treatment, and no treatments are helping my diagnosed illnesses. The possibility that I might be stuck living like this forever is devastating

I'm 18 and I'm new to this "sudden Chronic illness nobody can figure out whats wrong with me" type thing idk. Ummm, it's been 2 years (started 2020) and honestly not much has changed, no sugar coating i feel miserable, I often go into day dreaming about me feeling alive again and not like a walking zombie (ew I'm crying typing this) it sucks... and being so young you're like jealous of other teens working, partying, going to college and laughing. Its just hard. I personally believe it will never get better and you will always wonder and say "what if this, what if that." Its just a cycle, that you'll just have to get use to. Idk. But right now I'm just stuck I don't really know what to do... any more. Just keep pushing they say, so I'll say, Just keep pushing ❤️

I won’t say I’ve accepted, there’s day I don’t understand why I just can’t be okay.But there’s good and bad days, it’s not a bad life just one day in a thousand others. If I take today to be happy about one thing then I made the day happy. It sounds stupid and it takes a lot of work to look at it differently and some days I don’t have the energy to try. Just remember it’s okay to feel sorry for yourself just don’t let yourself stay there forever. I truly believe there will be day day where we’re all healed! Praying for you always!