Struggling with Gender Dysphoria and Family Burdens

I struggle with gender dysphoria. I'm not sure if I will be able to transition, I have a family that I feel will crumble if I transition. For a while I thought that if I transition it isn't my burden to carry the guilt of the aftermath for my family. I still believe that to be true, but I love my family so much that I think I have to carry this burden so that it doesn't hurt anyone else. I worry though that I am poisoned and it'll seep out and do slow but certain damage over the years that make it worse than "paying" for it upfront. To be more specific we have children and so this would include divorce. I don't know that anyone will have any advice but I'm hoping that by posting this I feel better having expressed myself.