My Abusive Mother and My Sexual Assault

when my sexual assault started I was a five year old little girl that this is only the beginning it didn't stop until I was fourteen years old yes I did have a mother and you would think that would protect her daughter but every time I spoke about any of the men that did this she would get mad at me and said that she was trying to ruin her happiness but also tells the same daughter that she would never have a life of rape and pain because she has been through it here whole life from age five to Fifteen years old so just to make that abusive mother of mine happy I did the only thing I let every man that she claimed loved her use me for their sexual desires why? because I have been in fear of my mom if I told her again the outcome would not be pleasant for me.