Feeling Inadequate: Struggling to Find My Talent

I hate being so awful at everything I wanna be good at because I just get mad when I’m bad at it and then don’t practice because I just get angrier the longer I try when I know it’ll be bad… and then my friends who are a million times more talented than I try to say I am good at stuff but it just makes me more mad. No I’m not. You’re saying what you think I want to hear and it feels worse coming from someone who actually is good at what they do… idk. I’m tired of being the oldest in my friend group and also the least talented by a fuckinf long shot… I wish I could be good at something, anything.