Tw: ptsd, depression, suicidal ideation, anxiety, domestic abuse
I’ve been dealing with so much stress it’s making me sick. I live with my ex (just a few days ago) and they can’t admit that their behavior is abusive. They laughed about it and said if I think what they’ve done has been abusive then I’m ridiculous. I’ve talked to a da hotline to confirm the other night and they’ve hit so many marks… I have no choice to leave. I’m already diagnosed with ptsd from my home as a kid and that stuffs getting brought up again. I’m so depressed and definitely considering suicide again. I’ve tried before but got found, I called out of work today because I feel so sick about everything I can’t handle going in and dissociating all day, having to be asked if I’m okay and I have to lie because it’s embarrassing to admit what’s going on. It makes me feel like I’m not a man, like I can’t handle everything, I have no way out and they told me they can’t control their impulses because I piss them off when I just asked them to stop yelling, throwing things and me, and hitting the wall. I have no support, I don’t want to reach out to anyone in real life either because I truly just want to die…

Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD)

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  • Sunnysideoflife


    First, I want to say that you are an incredibly strong human being. Going through any type of abuse at any age is incredibly hard and for you to have gone through that and come out on the other side proves how resilient your are. Secondly, I want to assure you that nothing you have done has caused this, abusers will deflect the responsibility of their abusive actions on to others but that doesn't mean they aren't completely responsible for their actions. You do not deserve to be treated like that. My partner and I both had a string of abusive relationships before we met. He is no less a man and I am no less a woman because of the people who hurt us. Finally, I want to remind you that you owe no one an explanation. You can take some time off work, if you feel comfortable asking a boss or coworker for help you can do that but there is no pressure to share any personal issues with any one in your life. The best thing you can do right now is find a trusted person in your life to help get you out of that situation, this can be anyone you feel comfortable with that you trust will get you help. You don't have to tell this person exactly what's going on, you can simply say you and your ex have broken up and you need some help moving away. Once you are away from your abuser you can begin the process of healing. No matter what, I and the rest of this community will support you and help you in any way possible. We believe you, we see you, and we will be here every step of the way.

  • karlielewis93


    I have been through sexual abuse and suffer from ptsd

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