Struggling with Taking a Student ID Photo

Yes I am. I literally scratched out my face from my id because I can’t bare to look at it. If I look at any picture of me too long I just think “wow this is really me. i cant change I’m like this for the rest of my life.” it hurts so bad. My mom is gorgeous she always has been and she tells me I can’t bring that into the house. She says none of her kids are ugly but that’s not true because I’m here. One day I came home crying because my friend showed me the yearbook in the bus. I just felt so sad. My mom told me to get out and that it was tough love but telling me to tell myself I’m beautiful will never be enough because I know it isn’t true. Im glad that I’ve found people that might be going through the same thing. It helps a little bit to know you’re not alone.