Help! I'm afraid of myself and need advice

Step one to getting through any problem is acknowledging your faults and what you need to fix, I know it feels hopeless, but you’re already on the correct track. Take baby steps. At the end of your post you asked yourself “why am I doing this?” Without realizing you’ve recognized the problem, compulsive lying and unproductivity, and the reason for these actions, being a need for attention. Take a moment to calm down when these emotions and feelings of uncertainty plague you, and sort them out. Ask yourself the simple questions one at a time. I highly recommend therapy, or at least for now contacting the crisis line.

Hi My heart aches reading your message. I understand how you feel. It can be very scary. Know you are not alone. Many of us deal with the same feelings. It sounds like you are depressed. Can you get in to see a doctor? They really can help. You shouldn’t have to live this way. There are so many new meds that can really help with little side effects.🤗

you seek attention but in the wrong ways, there are other things to do that will bring attention to you without disrespecting those who struggle with illnesses you just need to find yourself