It gets better. It's nice to be able to lean on others for support, but I promise that the more you learn about yourself and your triggers it gets easier to regulate on your own.

i completely understand how you feel. it hurts when the person that helps you the most can’t help you, even if you understand it still hurts. when i go through it and i need my partner and he can’t be there for me i try to call a friend, or i do some mindful journaling, or watch a video or read a webtoon. if you can’t process what you’re going through Right Now, there’s no shame in distracting yourself to calm yourself down in the moment. always remember to breathe!