Struggling with Special Ed Classes and Parental Pressure

I'm sorry that you're parents aren't understanding you about this :( but if regular classes aren't making you feel better, doing your ed class is still how you're working things out. it's good to adjust yourself, it'll help you succeed with your education while you also can work on your mental health. that's awesome, it shows to me and should to others too, that you're trying to do the best you can. I struggled so much during my last 2 years of high school because I wasn't getting the help I needed, I barely graduated. The school had straight up told me that they had no "resources" to help me and that I was being a threat to others, that I didn't want to cooperate. the whole time, everyday, I was having constant panic attacks that I had to leave class and missing homework.. nobody there was willing to help me except just transferring me to another school. I had to worry not just about failing my classes, but not even graduating on time or even being set back 2 years, plus the constant thought of me wanting to commit "scuba dive". I had to literally force myself and think about of the worst things that could happen, scaring myself to finish without any help and I did graduate... but at what cost? now I'm not on any meds, i still feel like poop, i can't leave the house without having a panic attack. They should understand that everyone operates differently and you finding a way to balance school and mental health is a perfect example, take that opportunity that your school is giving you !!! its not about being happy, it's the matter of fact of being able to STABILIZE yourself so that when you are "in the real world" you're able to push through, plus you can find manyyy awesome resources "in the real world" !! sorry to ramble but I kinda hope this helped, I wish you the best this school year. you can do this ♡

You're parents have your best interests in mind, but theyre not psyc professionals, they dont understand what you're going through. If you could just "face your problems" all at once and push through these things wouldnt be illnesses and disabilities. I think an ok medium would be to meet with a counselor and try to make a plan for sustainable progress. For example you can work on some coping strategies and consider trying one or two regular classes, in subjects you actually like or want to challenge yourself in. I had to do things slowly, and work on stuff one at a time, sometimes i would backslide when i tried to go too fast, but i got so better and am managing things pretty well. I hope they will be understanding and accept you progessing at a rate that works for you. If they arent, as many parents unfortunately are, I hope you don't let it defeat you. Sometimes parents dont know best, esp with older generations stigma around mental health, and lack of education. Just because theyre ideal doesnt work, doesnt mean you're hopeless. I believe you will be able to find stuff that works for you, and work towards what *you* want.

You're not being weak, you're dealing with the shitty hand life dealt you. It's wonderful that you have something to help you! Something a lot of neurotypical people don't understand is that "pushing through it" is a) often times impossible and b) not healthy at all. For us, what it REALLY means to push through it is to find healthy coping mechanisms so we can exist without all that extra pain. And that's exactly what you did. It's amazing that you have that option and I'm so glad you're taking advantage of it. School is already hard enough as it is, having something to make it easier on you since you're already having a hard time is wonderful. And guess what? In the real world, there will be options for you too. My mom said similar things to me, about how she worried I wouldn't be able to function in the real world. Currently in my second year of college and living on my own and I'm happier than I've ever been. It'll be okay, do the right thing for yourself and try not to worry about what others expect of you.