Feeling Useless and Overwhelmed with Fire School

Feeling useless. I started fire school on Sunday and I buried myself in reading my chapters today and threw myself into a panic attack basically because I couldn't remember if my instructor told us to do what's in our work book as we as read the chapter. So I started doing some of the work book stuff. I finish the Vocabulary, my dad grabs my books from me and throws them onto the couch across the room and says your done. Relax. That was my escape... my parents fight constantly and I work a full time job but hear all about it on my days off. My Instructor did get back to me and told me to just read the chapters and my dad said "I worry to much." And that just started everything. I shut down and played on my phone. I hate being told I worry to much when I honestly could not remember what my instructor told us to do before Saturday. My dad makes me feel bad for working a full time job because then he has to do everything around the house. And I get told I'm basically lazy when I don't wanna do anything before/after work or on my days off....