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i had a really bad episode today… i was supposed to go to an interview for a possible job (i’ve never had a job before and i’m 19) and i was really nervous and stressed out. i woke up this morning with my whole forehead and by my mouth covered in red bumps like an allergic reaction or a lotta acne. idk what it is. it was a bunch of little things, my nails were breaking off, my eyelash extensions ive had for over a month looked super wonky and gross, my hair was a mess and i couldn’t fix it because my broken nails pull it out whenever i try, and now my skin which was clearing up was full of tons of red gross bumps. i was already in a super bad mindset. anyways i was freaking out and ended up cutting all over my face. now i have all these red bumps literally everywhere on my face and bloody cuts on my cheeks. i’m so upset because i was doing so much better, drinking water, eating, journaling, working on school / getting a job, working out. i haven’t had an episode like this in a while. i hate myself for behaving that way but i couldn’t help it. now i can’t go to the interview for at least a week or until these cuts heal so that’s likely out the window. i used to have an as-needed anxiety medication which would have prevented all of this but my psychiatrist refuses to prescribe it to me again because he messed up with prescribing it in the past. he “accidentally” allowed me to take it every day for my school anxiety and now he won’t let me take it for astronomical anxiety attacks like today’s. anyway i can explain that more somewhere else but right now i’m feeling so f**king down and ive messed everything up. my face looks like a burn victim and i’m so much more depressed than ive been in a long time. ive been trying so hard for so long. i want to give up.
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Anxiety (Including GAD)
Depression
Self-inflicted injury
Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD)
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dang, i’m sorry, that sucks. relapsing is hard especially when all you want is to just stop. i’m struggling with this rn and it makes me feel so guilty and gross. sometime imagining what you would say to someone else in your situation can help you get some perspective. don’t know if you have tried it but DBT has been really helping me lately
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I know how it feels to have everything out of control and pissing you off and just ugh all the time. I wish you the best love.
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@housesucculent this also helps sometimes: Text CONNECT to 741741 for free, 24/7 help for self-harm.
Please don’t give up and please don’t feel like your worth is tied to your ability to live a healthy life; healing is not linear, we are bound to have days that set us back, sometimes even all the way back. And it’s so unfair you no longer have the medication you need. I feel that; I’m rationing my anti anxiety meds as we speak. I’m so sorry about all of this but all I can say is that it gets better. I’m 28, a lawyer, and still struggling…but I’m alive. And I’m fighting everyday. I’ll fight alongside you
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