Living with Type 1 Diabetes: A Daily Struggle

living the daily life of a 39-year-old type 1 diabetic for 5 years can be incredibly exhausting some days you feel like you're not living you're just existing. I know that God is in control and that one day I won't have to go through the ups and downs of this horrible disease that I never asked for. it's enough that I have other pre-existing health conditions to tackle and take care of and be proactive about besides this. you hope that when you change your freestyle Libre 2 that the sensor works in your reader reads and you don't have to consistently prick your finger and get a test strip just to get an accurate blood sugar level but thankfully your reader and your sensor start communicating with each other. all I want is for my A1c to be better and for all the things going on in my life ticket better all I have is my faith but today is one of those days where all I want to do is just fall to my knees and say God what do I do? I feel alone dealing with and facing this every day and I'm so tired of it and I want to go back to who I was and how I felt before becoming a diabetic. I don't want to have to count carbs I don't want to have to factor how much insulin I have to bolus before I eat or hope that my blood sugar is good throughout the night and I think God that I wake up everyday instead of dying in my sleep like my only sister did 9 years ago. I'm thankful that she wasn't diabetic but I miss her and I wish that she was here because I know that she would be of incredible support to me in my battle with this horrible disease that every diabetic Warrior has to face and deal with from the age of a baby to an elderly adult. I don't have that many friends and I don't know anyone that has been through or gone through the things that I have that I can relate to and talk to. I'm not married I can't have children found that out at the age of 15 I survived three cancer scares in my life and every day I look in the mirror I wish that I was as beautiful when I was younger but I'm still young. all I want is a little of the good life even though I do count my blessings. is there anybody out there like me?