Frustrated with Therapy

I haven’t seen my therapist since August. After that appointment, the receptionist told me they would call me to make an appointment when something opens up. By October they still haven’t called me, so I call them. They say “someone should have called you.” Like what? So I really was forgotten about like I was afraid of… then we make a new appointment for December. That’s so far from October but I made it anyway. December is here. It’s the day before the appointment and they call me to tell me that my therapist is sick and can only do phone appointments. I’m okay with that I guess cause at least I’ll get to talk to her. The next day, I get a text from them about an hour before my appointment saying, “your appointment has been cancelled”.. I call and ask why and they said she called out sick. They want to make a new appointment so I agree… the next available is in January.. this is ridiculous. By then it’ll be five months since I’ve talk to my therapist. They should at least have some back up for when this stuff happens. They don’t know when someone is on the edge and just needs to talk to someone in the professional psychiatric field. The person on the phone didn’t even ask me if I’m doing okay after I told her how long it’s been. I’m over this fucking therapy stuff. My last therapist resigned, because she said “I can’t help my patients they way I want to”… Sorry I just needed to vent about this in an anonymous way so it’s not all over my social media.. I’m just so frustrated and have a lot going on in my personal life that’s making my depression worsen. I have no motivation to do the things I love anymore.