Overcome with Rage and Love for People I'm Close With

I find myself overcome w rage and hatred for people who I love and then overcome w sm love for them to the point where I want to b w them all the time and both these emotions can happen within like a week. These feelings only happen w people who I am close with and they never happen for any reason that I can discern- my friends don’t do anything particularly to me I just feel like my emotions towards people r like a switch which someone’s flicking randomly. I don’t know if this is just a rly fucking stupid thing and it’s normal life or if it’s not normal at all, does anyone know Bcs I just feel so guilty because of it and it’s caused me to hurt people who I do love because I act coldly towards them.