Fear of Choking: Can't Enjoy Food Anymore

I’m so sorry you’re going through this, it sounds so so hard. So some therapists hesitate from diagnosing because they worry clients will take it as a label and identify with it, however it could be something else. I’m not trying to project or assume but it kind of sounds, to me, like a form of ocd where there’s the fear of choking, the compulsion to make noises to make sure you’re not choking and maybe if there’s fear that if you don’t make the noises you’ll choke it could fall into that? I know there’s emetophobia which fear of throwing up and this sounds different but I don’t think that it’s weird. Spitting out food and restricting types of food definitely fits descriptions of some eating disorders and going from that to binging can be such a confusing and exhausting pendulum swing. It also in a way sounds a little like ARFID as well, avoidant restrictive food intake disorder, where you restrict to certain safe foods, it can be fear of choking, fear of contamination, fear of getting sick/throwing up, all of that can fall into that but again seeking out a label can feel limiting when there’s different things going on - I guess I’m trying to say I know having an identified “yes this is the problem” can be so relieving but not having that diagnosis doesn’t make your experience any less real. I hope this helps in some way and I’m here to talk if you need