Struggling with Mental Health and Physical Illness

Hey y’all, I’m really struggling mentally right now. This year has been really hard for me. I started off the year with my boyfriend having a sb* which I caught. I survived and got close to v* but never did, then my dad had covid and didn’t tell us and gave it to me and that was really hard as well. I also just got over a uti and had to take antibiotics which made me super n*. Three weeks later I’m laying in bed hardly able to move. I have a stiff neck, horrible pin in the left side of my neck, a headache, body aches, n*, d*, a temp of 102, and the chills. I’m having a dr come to my house since I have notbody to take me to the dr office but I’m really worried it could be something serious like meningitis or the flu and I just want to crawl into a hole and die. I can’t handle always feeling so poorly and I feel like there is no hope. I have also suffered from chronic n* for over a year and it’s just been so hard. I also struggle with emetophobia which is the fear of v* so that’s what makes this so much harder