I'm sorry you are feeling this way. I had someone tell me something that helped me a bit. "Feelings are not facts" you might feel like a failure, but I'm positive it's not a fact. Whenever I feel down I try to remind myself of a few things I'm grateful for within myself. For example I too feel like a failure often because I don't fit society's standards, but I can make people laugh and I'm a good listener and those things are just as important as anything else. Also why is it that we accept all sorts of animals and insects as they are, like sloths are way slower than a tiger, we don't get mad at the sloth for not being a tiger. I personally am a bit like a house cat, I like to lounge around, I only like a few people and every now and again I get wild and run all over town doing adventures or errands, usually errands, lol. Anyways, I hope you feel better soon and even something as simple (or as hard some days) as brushing your teeth can get you into a different headspace. Just count down 5,4,3,2,1 then get up and do something that you've wanted or needed to do. Just for you, no one else. 💓