I noticed I’ve found myself yearning to go backwards. Back to my dark days and dark times. I know I’m better now, my therapist says it, my family sees it, and sometimes I do feel that way. But then I get that impostor syndrome, and I want to go back to where my big feelings were not belittled and actually examined and I felt like I was cared for. I don’t know if that’s exactly wrong or anything. Is there anyone I can talk to? I don’t want to feel alone anymore.
On days like that, I remind myself how far I've come and that to go back would mean death. I am an alcoholic and I'm certain that returning to drinking would kill me. I take a deep breath and remind myself of how much I've survived and how much I've learned from all my experiences.
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I noticed I’ve found myself yearning to go backwards. Back to my dark days and dark times. I know I’m better now, my therapist says it, my family sees it, and sometimes I do feel that way. But then I get that impostor syndrome, and I want to go back to where my big feelings were not belittled and actually examined and I felt like I was cared for. I don’t know if that’s exactly wrong or anything. Is there anyone I can talk to? I don’t want to feel alone anymore.
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Anxiety (Including GAD)
Dissociation
Depression
Mood swings
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