Am I Too Much? The Burden of Neurodivergence

But what if we actually are too much? I know there is a really big push to comfort people who are neurodivergent to remind them that their needs are not unreasonable. They are valid needs. And maybe the people in their life can't meet them and that doesn't make those people inadequate, either. Everybody has needs and some peoples needs are heavier than others. But what if I actually am too much? That the culmination of the big feelings and deep thoughts, my intensity, the overwhelming trauma, what if - in asking if the people around me who are loving and good can help meet my needs - I emotionally bankrupt good people. Sure, they have a responsibility to express their boundaries, the limits of their capacities. But there is this tension where they care and want to help but feel helpless to actually meet my needs because my needs are just....so big. And so I spread it out across as many people as I can and...its still insufficient. So I practice self soothing and coping skills and go to therapy and read the books and occasionally contact the crisis hotlines...and its still insufficient. I'm a good person doing my best and I have good people in my life doing their best. And its not enough. Because, functionally, I'm too much.