Struggling with the aftermath of a manic episode

TW // overdose mention and sh Hello, I recently had a trip to the hospital AnE or Emergency services I was there due to a hyper manic episode causing me to overdose and SH . I was there for three days and I had many different people looking after me . But there was a couple who stuck out . Familiar faces who would offer me tea , one was my nurse , one held me tonight whilst I as a breakdown over potentially not being allowed to go home , another clapped and was I n'ai much joy when I got to go home . She had been trying for days to get through to the mental health team. I feel empty I don't want to be at home . I miss it . I felt safe and secure there I bonded so much to throes people who I may have only spoken to a handful of times and now I'm lose . Coming home to my dad secretly wanting to be angry at me and my mum begging me to tell her why . There judgmental tones are so clear . I was there for three days but now that I'm home Idk . It's only been a couple hours I came home around 8 it's now 2am but idk I don't feel the joy I thought I'd feel