Missing the Intense Energy of Last Summer

Last summer I was a total mess, in the process of getting diagnosed and trying medications. I was psychotic. This summer I’m pretty stable. Last summer, though, I had this certain energy, this certain energy in everything, it was so bright and intense and kind of like magical. I don’t know how to describe it really. I miss it. I’m doing much better, but I miss life feeling so important, feeling such determination and purpose, so many special things happening. I’m not that depressed right now but everything is low and slow. I don’t know I just really miss it and I want it back and I hope I experience it again.