Venting about Isolation and Trauma

i hate how i isolated myself to the point i almost got molested by a really old teacher which is super creepy. i hate how i did myself. i hate how much i isolated myself to the point a pedophile could have taken action on me as a minor. i hate my life so much. i hate how bad i did myself. i hate how i really isolated myself. i hate that no one came to my rescue i hate how uncomfortable the whole thing was. i hate that no one was there to save me. i hate that so much. i hate isolation. i hate everybody i hate that nasty creep teacher i hate myself. i hate him with a passion he is such an idiot and is so creepy and weird i hate him with everything. what a fucking creep disgusting old guy. i hate how my life is over in a second. i hate the ptsd ii hate the trauma. i hate that trauma that anxiety with a passion i hate how lost i was. i cant even admit this out loud it makes me so uncomfortable