Struggling with Existential Crisis: Seeking Meaning and Connection

So I’ve been struggling a lot existentially since my 2 year relationship ended. I’ve always been a very existential person, but I’m really struggling finding meaning in my own life. I’ve been learning so much about myself the last year or so, but since the break up I can’t see that I mean anything. So I guess this is why I’m typing this out. I understand that I need to learn to value myself. I’ve been improving on that the past year believe me.. but I’m afraid I will never have that true connection that others seem to find with each other. Not just romantically, but in any relationship. I long to be understood. I long to feel that I have an effect on the world, that there are people out there who care about whether or not I’m okay or alive or happy. I long for people who want to understand me as much as I want to understand myself. But would I be using it as a crutch? Is it something I need or would it be a distraction from the pain I feel? My thoughts can only spiral anymore and I can’t land on any satisfying answers. I don’t know what to do.