Struggling with Epilepsy, Depression, and Anxiety: Feeling Like a Burden

epilepsy, depression, and anxiety is one hell of a combo. I see everything affected in everyone else's life, especially those close to me, and feel bad about it, like I'm a horrible burden and they'd be better off if I wasn't holding them all back. every comment made related in any way to how they're affected, like my wife saying she wishes she didn't have to do so much herself, just makes it worse. everyone uses me as the standard of emotional strength because I manage to keep a smile plastered on my face through the epilepsy, but nobody knows... nobody knows I'm inches from breaking down at any given moment. I can't let them know now, I'd let everyone who thinks I'm so strong down. every day, every comment, every failure, makes me feel more and more like everyone would be better if I wasn't a burden in their life any more.