Struggling with an Eating Disorder on TPN

@AnonyMex93 I can do applesauce, I think! I also have sensory processing disorder and could never do the texture of pudding

@Unknow so this is not necessarily temporary..if it works, I’d have to live with it for the rest of my life. We are trialing it, but if it is the only thing that works, I have to continue this diet. And I have tried a lot of different things and have had 12 surgeries to try and fix things, all not being as successful as we would like and I still end up in the hospital at least once a month. And oh yes-I’ve definitely told the doctors about my past ED, and I’m very open with them about my past struggle. I’ve been doing really well with it the past two years-no behaviors since early 2020. I’m just afraid that even though I’m doing well with it and have been actually enjoying food, I’m going to slip backwards when I am so limited with what I can consume. And yes, I’m on several depression meds and I do Electroconvulsive therapy. I also see therapists and psychiatrists. I know I need to follow the doctors orders but I feel like this is going to be hard on me especially if it is long term.