Struggling with Consistency in Motivation

You’re already doing so much, and it sounds like you have a very clear idea of your goals and values. What you’re describing about CBT practices is super familiar to me, because I studied psychology and found it too easy to logic my way out of CBT techniques. It sounds like you may benefit from trauma-informed therapy, that focuses more on the body sensations related to our mental health. I do EMDR, but I know there is somatic experiencing therapy that is similar. When I have an over-abundance of energy, it tends to go to overthinking quite easily. Once I found out I was autistic and ADHD, I realized that hyperactivity could be expelled through stimming; I had been holding my body so still and trying so hard not to have the energy. But the brain-body connection is so important to living a more connected life. Finding ways to release that energy through movement, breathing, and mindfulness techniques is a lot better when you make them work for you. Embrace just being and learning about what makes you feel good. It sounds like you already have a good idea of how to make that energy productive, and you have things you enjoy. Overthinking can definitely get in the way of fully doing those things, but you’ve got plenty of time and moments to work through things at your own pace.