Struggling with Authentic Friendships After Diagnosis

I literally only recently, within the last 7 months, have I have a genuine BFF...BUT, she has Bipolar 1 also and she’s unmedicated so she’s kinda freaking bitchy at times and I can’t really get mad because I’d be even worse if I was unmedicated. But I never had friends before these last few months. Nobody ever liked me except for guys, but never girls. ☹️ But now I have a BFF 👯‍♀️ but we met on @Influenster and it was so random!

I’ve had a couple friendships that seemed great at the time but failed due to miscommunications and a lack of trying on the other end. My best friend suddenly became my worst enemy. It can be hard to find genuine human connections, but by being honest with other people I find that’s the best way to make lifelong friends. Honestly it’s making it through the hardships that strengthens a bond

I thought I was really the only one who felt like this going back in friendships I realized that I was a different person in almost all of them it's crazy to think about but it's a hard cycle to break to think hey these people might like the real me then my brain goes nawwwww just mirror them

Yup, I realized there is only family and platonic relationships, no such thing as a friend bc we're all selfish in the end.

I think it’s my brain chemistry that causes me to feel this way. Some days I’m like wow these people love me and I love these people too. Most days I hide behind a façade, I feel that most of who I am is underneath my apprehension to trust others.