Struggling with Anxiety and Body Image

I think that it's unreal how I've always been overweight. I was bullied in elementary for even wearing JEANS. I wore PJs to class ever since. I didnt grow up around my extended family, cousins. I was shy, timid and little did I know, that I would struggle with anxiety and depression. There's more to that story than just being insecure. There was a phase of childhood trauma in there, involving other family members (hence the reason I wasn't around them much, I'm sure you could figure out what I was, it's very common in a dysfunctional family). I moved to a bigger city almost 3 years ago and my anxiety has skyrocketed. I tried to keep a job 3 times, all failing due to stress and anxiety. I don't have the money for a therapist. But at the same time, I don't know what I would tell them. I'm anxious over anything and everything. There's no reason. I'm at the happiest stage of my life at the moment And I'm struggling. struggling with body image and no motivation to make changes, struggling with wondering what everyone thinks of me even though it doesn't matter. I'm having trouble getting out and making friends. I get the sweats, I get nervous and anxious and I find ways to exit myself. I'm sure that maybe, if I dropped this weight, I would absolutely be more confident, more extroverted and energetic and fun. is anyone else struggling? I'm a whole adult and I'm having high school problems.