Struggling to Make Friends at School Number Seven

I've been to seven different schools throughout my life. I'm on number seven right now, which is in a completely different state than the six before. Needless to say, making friends has become more of a chore than anything. but talking to people is the absolute worst. I used to be so good at it, but now that I'm on school number seven, I don't remember anything I say to people. I'll repeat stories over and over and over again, or forget things they said to me only a few minutes before. I realized that I have begun dissociating during conversation to protect myself. I think that the mental strain that comes with trying to have a good image at a completely new place in a completely new state where nobody relates to you is just too much for me to handle. I never thought I dissociated, but coming to the realization opened up a huge can of worms where I remembered I would do it often in my childhood whenever people were yelling or fighting. Does anyone else forget stories they've told or conversations they've had because they just can't handle it anymore?