The Struggle with Mental Illness

it's always amazing to me how debilitating mental illness can be. Although it may be hidden or hard to notice, it truly drives me to the ground. I'm super successful in my job, going the path I wish to with my life, yet it's hard to ignore the fact that I'm just so sad all the time. Nothing seems to be worth it, yet I truck forward. I don't know why I go forward, but I do. I write and I read, Work and Sleep, Embrace life and Avoid it. It's all the same in the end, yet here I sit, wondering what's left for me.