Struggling with MS Diagnosis and Loss of Spouse

I have MS. My husband died 5yrs. ago and before knowing what was wrong with me. I was diagnosed in '19 but knew there was something wrong long before that. There three back surgeries over '07 and '11, and I was still having issues. It took a long time for me to find out what was happening to me. My husband said it was the first Dr that messed me up. He went to his grave believing that. Alot of tests and Dr's layer, I finally hit on a neurologist that felt she knew what it was. She ordered a spinal tap and I got my answer. It was MS.