Struggling with the Desire to Stay Sick

honestly i think that’s part of the disorder itself. i feel the same way- i just want to get thinner… not better 🙃

Yes, unfortunately so. I want to get better, but I don’t at the same time. The symptoms are starting to become too much to handle but I can’t handle the thought of gaining weight, so I cling to my disorder.

I'm kinda like that but I've been in recovery for a few years and every so often I get in those "I'm glad I recovering but I don't like this why does this have to be a part of it?!"